Responsible
Firearms Ownership 
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These days, when I retire in the evening, I am afforded the
comfort of
assured security. I rest peacefully, my thoughts centered firmly
on my many
blessings, the butterfly tickles indicating the life growing
inside of me, and
my renewed confidence that America can weather most political
storms,
only to emerge stronger than before.
What brings me such peace of mind? Is it the strapping giant
I call my
husband, nestled in the bed along side of me? To a degree, yes.
Is it my
comfortable home, located in a quiet neighborhood? To a degree,
yes. Is it
the security alarm that monitors my home continuously, warning
against
unwanted intrusion? To a degree, yes. Ultimately, the source
of my peaceful
rest is the 12 Gauge 28" Accu-Choke shotgun and case of 3" shells
under
mybed.
I did not always know this level of serenity.
In 1989, I decided to return to college to finish my Bachelors
degree. I
accepted a position for which many have rightly earned spots
in Heaven; I
became a Burger King night manager. While far from prestigious,
it allowed
me to work almost 40 hours a week and still attended college
full-time. In
January of 1990, just four weeks into my new position, I experienced
a
typical Murphy's Law evening…what could go wrong did go wrong.
When I
left the safe confines of my store, it was very late, very dark,
and I was
alone. Well, not really.
Two armed robbers were waiting for me in the parking lot. At
gunpoint, I
was forced back into the store, forced to turn off the alarm,
forced to open
the safe, and then forced to the floor of my restaurant. The
memory of the
gun barrel shoved into the back of my head, as I lay on the
floor face down,
remains firmly impressed on my mind.
Thankfully, the robbers did not fulfill their threat to blow
my brains out; I
had complied without question, survival instantly becoming the
sole focus
of my being.
In the still sickening moments that followed their departure,
I pressed every
panic button in the store, retrieved what was left of the smashed
phone,
plugged it in, and desperately called the police. My words were
tearfully
jumbled, but recognizable, until I saw headlights swinging into
the parking
lot. In nanoseconds, my tone leapt from controlled distress
to hysterical,
rising two full octaves to a begging soprano as I screamed,
"I have to hide! I
have to hide! They're coming back in to kill me!" Thankfully,
it was the
police; they had come to my "rescue."
In the grueling hours that followed, filled with police tape,
fingerprint dust,
and endless questions about the evening's events, I was asked
not once,
not twice, but four separate times if the robbers had harmed
me in anyway.
The last person to approach me with this question was a female
detective,
who gently escorted me to a private corner at the back to the
store. "No," I
assured her, "I would tell you if they did. But I must ask,
you are the fourth
person to ask me about this. Why?"
I later learned that out of 14 stores, I was the only manager
that was not
assaulted. These robbers were not just robbers; they had raped,
shot, and
beaten other managers and employees. Apparently, at some point
when
they were "casing" my store, I must have done or said something
that made
them see me as a "human being."
In short, I was lucky. Very lucky. Extremely lucky. Unbelievably
lucky. I was
back at my job within 48 hours. I was convinced that if I didn't
return, I
would have allowed the robbers to take more from me than a few
lousy
dollars.
I didn't think of the robbery until four years later, when my
husband began a
new job that required him to work the graveyard shift. Suddenly,
I was alone
in the evenings, with no alarm to our apartment and no warning
of an entry
save my hearing. I became acquainted with insomnia and sleep
depravation,
jumping at every noise, fearful at every turn. When a rapist
claimed his
fourth victim in our area, I lived on caffeine, cigarettes,
and an average of 3
hours sleep a night unless my husband was home.
On one evening in particular, my body simply gave out. I crashed
upon
returning home from work, only to be awoken at 5:30 a.m. by
the shifting of
my bed. I snapped out of sleep and lurched up from under the
covers,
recognizing that someone was climbing into the hazy darkness
of the bed
alongside of me. My full-throated scream woke my neighbors,
one of whom
banged on the ceiling of my apartment while the other called
the police.
Thankfully, it was my husband, considerately trying not to wake
me as he
came home from work.
Why am I telling you this? I want you to understand that I didn't
purchase
my weapon in a knee-jerk reaction to my "victimization." It
took me several
years to see guns as trusted friends, not hated foes. I had
to move past
emotion to a place where logic prevails; I had to stop thinking
like a victim,
and start thinking like a survivor.
Moreover, I want to make people understand that anti-gun laws
do no deter
crime. This statement is the absolute truth for two reasons:
1. Criminals, by
definition, do not obey the law. 2. Guns do not have a life
of their own; they
do not fly about randomly committing crimes. Guns are simply
tools; they
require human beings to operate
If the anti-crime activists want to seriously address the issue,
they should
call for the arming and proper training of all law-abiding citizens.
If they
seriously want to level the "playing field," they should make
sure
law-abiding citizens are equipped with the right gear to survive
in
the"game."
The fact that some anti-gun groups call for the wholesale confiscation
and
elimination of guns tells me one thing…they want to see me naked
in my
desperation, clutching a telephone, begging for the police to
come before
the intruder violates my home, my body, my child. To secure
their peace of
mind, they would leave me exposed to certain victimhood, rather
than
allowing me to empower myself and defend my God-given right
to live and
to protect my family.
I have just four words for folks like that: Over My Dead Body.
I will not play
the victim for you. I will not trust the future of my security
to things like
"luck". I will not be a statistic, just so you can feel as if
you have "done
something."
My days of being a helpless female are over.
Linda A. Prussen-Razzano www.enterstageright.com